Why I am always sad

1. I'm fat and I have an eating disorder so my body won't let me lose weight.
2. I have almost no friends and they go to a different school.
3. At my current school I literally have no best friends.
4. I'm stupid.
5. My ultimate dream is to be a kpop star, but that's impossible for me since I'm fat and talentless.
6. I'm unattractive.
7. My dad makes fun of my weight.
8. My personality is shy and boring.
9. I want plastic surgery.
10. I don't get excited anymore, or feel happy.

To Transfer or Not to Transfer

Why Not to Transfer
1. Current school is famous academically/athletically
2. I know the campus
3. I know what classes to take vs what not to take
4. I know the teachers

To Transfer
1. Happiness, last year was the most depressing time of my life
2. Friends are at the other school
3. More artistic campus
4. Chinese people :)
5. School starts later
6. Friendlier people
7. Eight classes a year

Miss A Goodbye Baby Review

Definitely a sexier look than usual. The music video did confuse me though. What did they have to do with that guy? Was he the director or an actor or something? I have no idea. The song is catchy and you can definitely tell it's by Miss A by the style. I like Jia's rapping. What can I say, I'm a Say A.

Rebecca Black Opinion/My Moment Review

I don't understand why people are hating on her so much. If you want to blame anyone, blame her company (old company?). She's actually a decent singer and she's pretty too. Is she the best? Maybe not, but she can sing a lot better than some people in the music industry. Why is it everyone hates her and makes fun of her so much? Why do all her videos have so many dislikes? I find her inspirational. She has be ridiculed and harassed, yet she still attempts to live her dream. I'm not actually a fan of her, but I find it pathetic that people are being so rude. She's just a teenage girl trying to make it into the industry. Leave her alone, please. She's such a strong person to be bouncing back and not letting the haters get to her.

My moment is a pretty catchy song.

Lose weight...

Once I lose around 15 pounds I'm going to sign up for vocal classes and dance lessons. I don't want to go the rest of my life wondering what might have happened if I auditioned for an agency.

How I'm going to be a Kpop Star

1. Lose 15-20 pounds this year
2. Take vocal lessons
3. Take Hip hop/ballet/jazz/tap/gymnastic lessons once I finish losing weight
4. Visit audition places (SM)
5. Go to Korea and audition
6. Make youtube videos to audition
7. Learn to socialize

Audition plan
-Sing falling slowly
-Dance a hip hop dance with popping, splits, body rolls, and a front walkover or flip
-Rap Look at me now

An Outfit I want to Wear

Black sheath dress
Black high heels

Black sheath dress
Nude high heels
Statement flower necklace

Makeover I will give myself

When I reach my goal weight of course (:

1. Whiten teeth
2. Eyebrows waxed
3. Dye hair Red/Purple
4. New Wardrobe to find my style
5. Tiffany's/Juicy/Nordstrom jewlery
6. Lots of white clothes
7. Cut hair?
8. Crossbody bag

Outfits I will wear when I'm Skinny

1. A white abercrombie wife beater tank top with top white bras, acid washed or ripped skinny jeans, and toms/oxfords/heels. My hair will be up in a pony tail with a white ribbon tied around it. My makeup with be nars cactus flower blush, urban decay zero eyeliner tight liner, and lip balm. My bag will be a faux leather tote.

2.

Meal/Exercise Plan July 12

Breakfast:
Greek Yogurt
Watermelon

Lunch:
5 raviolli pieces
Peach

Lift Weights
Walk Dog

Dinner:
TBD

Motivation to Lose Weight

To wear whatever clothes I want to.

To smile without covering my fat cheeks.

To take dance classes and feel skinny.

To rock a strapless dress and heels.

To buy expensive clothing without worrying about gaining weight.

To try out for sports teams and make it.

To go to school dances while feeling pretty.

To wear your hair up without feeling like your face is too round.

To not feel fat while standing next to other people.

To take thinspiration pictures for other people.

To not feel embarrassed in front of people.

To get a belly button piercing!

To see what you look like at your best.

To potentially model?

DON'T GIVE UP

Motivation for Weight Loss

Do it for that bikini and crop top body

When I go back to school, I want to turn heads. I want to be able to sit in my chair without worrying about how my stomach fat looks. I want to be able to run without seeing my thighs jiggle. I want to beat any guy or girl at arm wrestling. I want to be the positive and talkative girl you can trust with secrets and ask advice to. I want to be popular. I want to be a fashion icon.

Bubble Pop Hyuna Review

This song is pretty catchy actually. I really like the "wooo" part xD. The youtube video reached 5 million views already! F(x) Hot summer is still at 2 million (yeah I'm holding a grudge lol).

People need to stop calling her a slut. I don't see her doing anything remotely slutty, at all. Hyuna has always had a sexy image, 4minute has always had a sexy image, what more did you expect from her?

I think she's a little too tan though. I like all skin colors but I think her hair's too light for her skin now.

Personally I think Gayoon is the most talented out of 4minute. Hyuna is given the most attention, but I think Gayoon deserves a solo.

Overall I like this song (: I smell a winner!

Bold your Bias

1. Siwon (Super Junior)
2. Donghae (Super Junior)
3. Kyuhyun (Super Junior)
4. Kibum (Super Junior)
5. Kangin (Super Junior)
6. Leeteuk (Super Junior)
7. Eunhyuk (Super Junior)
8. Ryeowook (Super Junior)
9. Sungmin (Super Junior)
10. Han Geng (Super Junior)
11. Heechul (Super Junior)
12. Shindong (Super Junior)
13. Yesung (Super Junior)
14. Zhou Mi (Super Junior)
15. Henry Lau (Super Junior)

16. G-Dragon (BigBang)
17. TOP (BigBang)
18. Daesung (BigBang)
19. Taeyang (BigBang)
20. Seungri (BigBang)

21. Jaebeom (2PM)
22. Nichkhun (2PM)
23. Taecyeon(2PM)
24. Wooyoung (2PM)
25. Junsu (2PM)
26. Junho (2PM)
27. Chansung (2PM)

28. Max Changmin (TVXQ)
29. Xiah Junsu (TVXQ)
30.Micky Yoochun (TVXQ)
31. U-Know Yunho (TVXQ)
32. Hero Jaejoong (TVXQ)

33. Joon (MBLAQ)
34. Seungho (MBLAQ)
35. G.O (MBLAQ)
36. Mir (MBLAQ)
37. CheonDoong/Thunder (MBLAQ)

38. DongWoon (BEAST)
39. Yoseob (BEAST)
40. JunHyung (BEAST)
41. HyunSeung (BEAST)
42. DooJoon (BEAST)
43. GiKwang/AJ (BEAST)

44. Hongki (FTI)
45. Jonghun (FTI)
46. Minhwan (FTI)
47. Jaejin (FTI)
48. Seunghyun (FTI)

49. Lee Seunggi
50. Lee Minho
52. Kim Bum

53. Taemin (SHINee)
54. Jonghyun (SHINee)
55. Minho (SHINee)
56. Onew (SHINee)
57. Key (SHINee)

58. HyunJoong (SS501)
59. YoungSaeng (SS501)
60. JungMin (SS501)
61. KyuJong (SS501)
62. HyungJoon (SS501)

63. Song Joong Ki
64. Jang Geun Suk

65. LeeU (F.Cuz)
66. Jinon (F.Cuz)
67. Yejun (F.Cuz)
68. Kan (F.Cuz)

69. Wonbin (ex- FT Island)

70. ChangHyun (SHU-I)
71. MinHo (SHU-I)
72. Inseok (SHU-I)
73. HyunJoong (SHU-I)
74. Jinseok (SHU-I)

75. Ha MinWoo (ZE:A)
76. Hwang KwangHee (ZE:A)
77. Jung HeeChul (ZE:A)
78. Moon JunYoung (ZE:A)
79. Park HyungShik (ZE:A)
80. Im SiWan (ZE:A)
81. Kim TaeHun (ZE:A)
82. Kim DongJun (ZE:A)
83. Kevin Kim (ZE:A)

84. Shin SooHyun (U-KISS)
85. Alexander (U-KISS)
86. Kim Kibum (U-KISS)
87. Eli (U-KISS)
88. Lee KiSeop (U-KISS)
89. Kevin Woo (U-KISS)
90. Shin DongHo (U-KISS)

91. Bi Rain

92. Changmin (2AM)
93. Jinwoon (2AM)
94. Seulong (2AM)
95. Jokwon (2AM)

96. CL (2NE1)
97. Minzy (2NE1)
98. Bom (2NE1)
99. Dara (2NE1)

100. Taeyeon (SNSD)
101. Sooyoung (SNSD)
102. Seohyun (SNSD)
103. Tiffany (SNSD)
104. Hyoyeon (SNSD)
105. Jessica (SNSD)
106. Sunny (SNSD)
107. Yuri (SNSD)
108. Yoona (SNSD)

109. Yonghwa (CN Blue)
110. Jungshin (CN Blue)
111. Jonghyun (CN Blue)
112. Minhyuk (CN Blue)

113. Kim Ah-Joong

114. Park Gahee (After School)
115. UEE (After School)
116. Bekah (After School)
117. Kim Jung-ah (After School)
118. Lee Jooyeon (After School)
119. Yoo Soyoung (ex-After School)
120. Raina (After School)
121. Nana (After School)
122. Lizzy (After School)

123. Park Gyuri (KARA)
124. Han Seungyeon (KARA)
125. Nicole (KARA)
126. Goo Hara (KARA)
127. Kang Jiyoung (KARA)

128. So Hee (Wondergirls)
129. Sun Ye (Wondergirls)
130. Sun Mi (ex-Wondergirls)
131. Ye Eun (Wondergirls)
132. YooBin (Wondergirls)

133. Eunjung (T-ara)
134. Hyomin (T-ara)
135. Ji-Yeon (T-ara)
136. Soyeon (T-ara)
137. Boram (T-ara)
138. Q-ri (T-ara)

139. Victoria (f(x))
140. Amber (f(x))
141. Luna (f(x))
142. Sulli (f(x))
143. Krystal (f(x))

144. Mika(D-NA)
145. Hyunmin(D-NA)
146. Karam(D-NA)
147. Injoon(D-NA)
148. Jay(D-NA)

149.Jihyun(4Minute)
150.Hyunah(4Minute)
151.Gayoon(4Minute)
152.Jiyoon(4Minute)
153.Sohyun(4Minute)

154. Woohyun (Infinite)
155. Myungsoo / L (Infinite)
156. Dongwoo (Infinite)
157. Sungyeol (Infinite)
158. Hoya (Infinite)
159. Sungjung (Infinite)
160. Sunggyu (Infinite)

161. Lee Hyori

162. JeA (Brown Eyed Girls)
163. Narsha (Brown Eyed Girls)
164. Miryo (Brown Eyed Girls)
165. Ga In (Brown Eyed Girls)

166. Park Jungah (Jewelry)
167. Seo In Young (Jewelry)
168. Kim Eun Jung (Jewelry)
169. Ha Joo Yeon (Jewelry)

Original vs Current Bias

Super Junior:

Original Bias: Siwon, Hangeng
Current Bias: Siwon, Sungmin, Hangeng, Henry

Big Bang:
Original Bias: TOP
Current Bias: TOP

SHINee:
Original Bias: Jonghyun
Current Bias: Jonghyun

2pm:
Original Bias: Nichkhun
Current Bias: Wooyoung, Nichkhun, and Taecyeon

FTIsland:
Original Bias: N/A

Current Bias: N/A

CNBLUE:
Original Bias: Yonghwa
Current Bias: All

BEAST:
Original Bias: N/A
Current Bias: N/A

MBLAQ:
Original Bias: N/A
Current Bias: N/A

FCUZ:
Original Bias: none
Current Bias: none

Infinite:
Original Bias: None
Current Bias: None.

SS501:
Original Bias: None.
Current Bias: None.

2AM:
Original Bias: Jiinwoon
Current Bias: Jinwoon, Jokwon

UKiss:
Original Bias: kevin
Current Bias: Kevin, Eli

DBSK:
Original Bias: Yunho
Current Bias: Yunho

Wonder Girls:
Original Bias: Sohee

Current Bias: Sohee

Girl’s Generation:
Original Bias: Sunny
Current Bias: Tiffany, Seohyun

KARA:
Original Bias: Goo Hara

Current Bias: Goo Hara

2NE1:
Original Bias: Dara

Current Bias: Minzy

f(x):
Original bias: Victoria
Current bias: Victoria, Amber, Luna

D-NA/Xing:

Original bias: none
Current bias: none

ZE:A:

Original bias: Kwanghee
Current bias: Kwanghee

4minute:

Original bias: Hyuna
Current bias: Jiyoon, Hyuna

Brown Eyed Girls:

Original bias: gaIn
Current bias: gaIn

Epik High:

Original bias: N/A
Current bias: N/A

Jewelry:

Original bias: N/A
Current bias: N/A

T-ara:

Original bias: Eunjung
Current bias: Jiyeong, Eunjung

miss A:

Original bias: jia
Current bias: fei

After School:

Original bias: Bekah
Current bias: Bekah

Kpop Fillout

KPOP ‘fill-out’

Favourite boy group?
Super Junior

Favourite girl group?
F(x)

Favourite idol group overall?
Super Junior

Other groups you love?
SNSD, 2pm, 4minute, U-kiss, 2ne1

Favourite pairings from each of your stated groups?
Super Junior=Henry Ryeowook

F(x)=Krystal Amber

Favourite idol group pairings?
Khuntoria!

Favourite solo female singer?
N/A, unless Park Bom counts xD

Favourite solo male singer?
N/A

Favourite idol overall?
Tiffany-SNSD

Favourite songs right now?
0330: U-kiss


Favourite fanclub?
ELFs

Favourite entertainment company?
Even though SM raises the best groups, I'm not a fan of how they treat their groups so I'll go with YG.

Loved a group you’re not into anymore?
Nope

First kpop song ever?
DBSK-Mirotic

First kpop music video ever?
DBSK-Mirotic

First kpop love (group/solo)?
Super Junior (M)

First variety show (and with who)?
happy camp- super junior m

Group you could never get into no matter how much you tried.
shinee

Any dance you can do (from a MV etc) or want to learn?
Bad Girl Good Girl, Gee, Oh, Nobody

Any songs you memorized the lyrics to?
Hahaha no way. Korean is so hard for me to remember. If you count super junior m songs than I know most of them.

Hottest male in the industry to you?
Siwon- Super Junior

Prettiest female in the industry to you?
Victoria- F(x)

A person you want to be like/admire the most?
Jessica or Tiffany- SNSD

A song you must/always/usually listen to EVERY day?
fiction-beast

Your favorite music video?
No idea, I prefer listening and watching live performances.

Any of your friends into kpop and who?
Yes, most of them since they're Korean. They don't know I'm into it though xD

Have any KPop merchandise?
sadly no

Which group can you see yourself being dedicated to for the rest of your time into Kpop?

Super Junior

Kpop Biases

Boy groups

Super Junior: Hangeng, Sungmin, Siwon
CN Blue: Jungshin
2pm: Taecyeon, Nichkhun
2am: Jinwoon
B1A4: Don't know their names yet xD
Co-ed: Sungmin
U-kiss: Kevin, Eli
Beast: N/A not really a fan of them yet, but I do like the song fiction
Big Bang: Same thing as above, but I do like some of their songs
Shinee: See above xD

Girls Groups

SNSD: Tiffany, Jessica, Sunny, Seohyun
2NE1: Minzy, CL
Secret: Zinger
T-ara: Eunjung
Miss A: Jia
4 Minute: Hyuna, Jiyoon
Wonder Girls: Sohee
F(x): Victoria, Amber

I'm not lesbian

I'm not lesbian, but I like looking at pictures of pretty girls than hot shirtless guys. Weird right? I think all girls are pretty, but I'm really picky when it comes to guys. I haven't liked a guy in 5 years.

Contemplating Plastic Surgery

These past couple days I've been looking up information on eyelid surgery, rhinoplasty, and liposuction. Just the idea that I'm even thinking of plastic surgery makes me want to cry. One year ago, I would never even think about getting plastic surgery. I'm only 14, this is insane.

Day 19: Your favorite interview of a k-pop idol or group

SNSD Japan

They look so gorgeous up close and in HD. That sounds kind of creepy... However Yuri does look way too skinny. Allkpop.com says she has awesome abs or whatever, but I miss her old body.

Day 18: A k-pop idol you wish was your younger sibling

Kevin, Dongho: U-kiss
Sungmin, Ryewook: Super Junior

They're so cute! I could ask them to show me their aegyo all the time xD